I can't change the world,

so why do I try to figure it out?

I know this is on my facebook, but it felt weird not being in here, so here you go.

I’ve been thinking, but when is that a surprise. I’ve always wondered what goes through people’s minds. But one thing I’ve noticed is, the little things people do mean more than people think. Even if there’s a jock here, and a nerd there, a simple hello can still change their lives. We always think before we introduce ourselves, asking someone to hang out, asking someone to go out, whatever the case is, we all stay inside how shells just waiting for the right time. There’s not going to be a sign that comes up, green light. There’s no driver’s manual telling you the right and wrong turns in life. It’s a free way, go. You will regret more of what you didn’t do, then what you did. You will never know what will happen until you try. It sounds stupid, but it’s the truth everyone is trying to avoid. Another thing, people are not out of anyone’s league. I hate seeing people tear themselves over people that they don’t think they have a chance with, they have friends, so do you. What makes people better than other people? Talents? Looks? Well, everyone has those, so absolutely nothing. We are all human beings with feelings, and the feeling of needing someone, and everyone would love to know someone cares, or is interested.

Think about if someone was tearing themselves over you, someone who admires you, someone who cares, but they go on living day by day wondering what you would say, wondering if you would give them a chance. You would love to know that, right? Yes, and so would they. I’m not trying to convince you to go out and just make the world an awkward place. There’s a place and time, but when I say that, that means there is a place, and a time, and you will tell them. Even if it’s just a friendship you are seeking. People make more impacts on random people then they think. Why do we trash talk other people? This one I can’t figure out. Instead of holding this unknown grudge against the person, life would be so much easier just to inform them. I hate having to think through all this stuff, I hate having to think about what people are feeling and what I can do to make this world just a better place. Superman must be real stressed out, all of the time. I can’t figure out people, when I can’t even figure out myself.

I need inspiration.

My blog has becoming so boring lately, I need something to write about and maybe new colors? I don't know. I change it around so much. I need ideas. :/

andy samberg.

He is adorable.

we're breaking free.

Things are different. No, I haven't move on from before, but I have moved forward at the same time. I've realized, you never really meant anything more than a name to make a few girls laugh. Must be proud, I sure would. The only person I've ever met that actually wants people to hate him, you're very unique, that's for sure.

Now, there's this other guy..
going through all this, and realizing what I need and what I want, I've realized you are both. I want to be with you, I want you to be proud of something (honestly, I have no idea what I meant by that, but it sounded alright.) I want you to know, I'm always here for you. Not because you're just so super cool, because for the first time, I think you are worth my time. All because you are thankful for it. Do I know this for sure? No. But I'm pretty sure by the way you act. By the way you smile when we past each other in the halls. By the way you call for no reason. By the way you can just be who you are knowing I won't be recording every move to just look back and judge.

Because you know I'm not like that, and now that's something I am proud of. You've taught me to have confidence. I've never realized until today, you mean more than I thought you would. And yes, I've lost so many people in the past years, and yes I thought life was over. I hate myself for believing that someday you will meet someone on vacation, and then the next time back at school they have moved to your school, and you will sing a song about being yourself and how much you want to dance with them while it's pouring on top of the school roof. Alright, that's not going to happen, but when I am with you, I feel like I don't need that. Because whenever I am with you, it's my own highschool musical. Without the music, without the dancing everyone happens to know, without the pouring rain, just being with you is greater than all three combined. And I am happy for my mistakes, and the people who walked out, because that's what got me here, with you.

to be with you.

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

find a penny pick it up

and all day long you'll have good luck.

I hate believing in 11:11, I hate believing in luck of a penny heads up, I hate believe that everything is suppose to be a sign for something greater, and getting my hopes up for nothing.

take this big brother.

You have to right to state your own opinion. You have the right to talk to whoever you wish to. You have the right to ask questions. You have the right to know the answers. You have the right to act like a little kid, at any age. You have the right to take a picture, and years later laugh. You have the right to make friends. You have the right to smile whenever you think it's right. You have the right to believe in anything you want. You have the right to go out and do whatever you want. You have the right to dream beyond your backyard. You have the right to respect everyone, no matter how you view them. You have the right to understand you are not perfect. You have the right to connect with other people. You have the right to deserve a chance. You have the right to be who you were born to be. You have the right to sing at the top of your lungs in public. You have the right to speak out. You have the right to teach people lessons. You have the right to cry your heart out. You have the right to start over. You have the right to express who you feel, in anyway. You have the right to live out your life with an open mind and a full heart. You have the right to know you are beautiful, no matter what anyone else thinks.

Beauty is always in the eyes of the beholder, remember that.
Beauty is not how much money you spend on makeup and clothes.
Beauty comes from the soul.
And true beauty reflects more than bought beauty does.

It's your right to know.

I wished for you, by the way.

words from a photograph.

Lately, I've been thinking about everything.
But, something really came to my mind to think about.

I looked at a picture of me from when I was about five years old. And it came to me. That girl, from ten years ago, didn't experience the times that I had to go through. All the times I couldn't stop crying, she has no idea. She has no idea of whats ahead. She didn't tell stupid boys tear her heart away. She was smarter than she is now. When I went to help out at the elementary school, it made me think. These kids have years ahead of them. They haven't met people who will change them, they haven't been places that will change them to take a different view.

It's just amazing to think now, oh our lives suck. Actually, ten years from now you will look back at pictures of your highschool years. Cracking up at the thought that you thought everyday your world was going to end. You will be happy, and wish you would have just put trust in God that you were going to make it out alive. Because you'll look back and realize you did.

Stop worrying about how happy you will be in the future. Stop taking time out of your prsent live to think about how the future will be. You are living in the past, present, and future. Leave the past behind, learn from it. Enjoy the minutes you are currently living. And have trust that your future will be bright. You are the only one to make your furute how you want it. But remember, live for today. The future will come soon enough.

this little girl.

not my problem, so I'm out.

It annoys me, it makes me want to just stand up and scream.
When something is not someone's problem, they say

"Oh, it's going to be fine." or "Oh my gosh, it's not big deal."

Well duh you think that. You aren't the one that needs help. You aren't the one thats traped with no way out.

I hate it, I just wish people could go out of their life for a second, and help people that aren't in the perfect place. But if it's not their problem, they couldn't care less.

I also find it annoying when people are someone's friend, until they actually need a shoulder to cry on. Then they are like whatever, see ya around.

Thanks. It means a lot.

look who's talking.

You have to tell people how you feel. There is no true way to know how someone feels towards you unless they tell you. There's no way they will know unless you tell them. People worry too much about being creepy with people. Hey, don't laugh. Seriously though. Giving someone a compliment will make their day. Everyone loves to know someone admires them, everyone loves to hear someone likes them for who they are.
Go for it.

let's dance.

I've been thinking about a lot lately.
I've been thinking about how important first impressions are.
I've been thinking about how no ones first impression is actually who they are.
I've been thinking about how much things change.
I've been thinking about how much you use to mean to me.
I've been thinking about how many times a day I am judged.
I've been thinking about how many people are truly in love with who they are with.
I've been thinking about what I want to do with my life.

I want to inspire people.
I want to make someone do something they've always wanted, but never had the motivation to do it.
I want to change someone's life.
I want to give someone that chance they've always deserved.
I want that one person to notice, they mean the world.
and they other to notice, I will never worship them.

I'm slowly killing myself.

I've realized how much different of a person I want to be. I want to stand out to people, but obviously not in a negative way. I strive to be the last one standing for something everyone knows is right, but afraid of what everyone will think. Today got me thinking of how sad it is that we all live to impress the eyes of others. Don't call me a hypercritical girl, I know, me too. And I used to deny it, I used to be like I don't care what people think and I realized I always did. But so do you. But lately, I've actually started to realize, it really doesn't matter. Because in ten years you won't even know the people around you, unless you were good friends with them. People are too harsh on people. Because no matter how "cool" you think you are, you know deep down inside, everyone is just as "good" as you. And the funny thing is, people who think they are all better, really have no room to talk. The most beautiful people are the most humble. Because the beautiful people are the ones with sense of directions, a set of morals, and confidence in who they are.

86,400 seconds in a day.

I feel like I've lost all motive to write in this ever since I realized how big of a jerk and waste of time he was. So now, what do I have to write about? Let's see, I've fallen in love with Kris Allen and Michael Buble. Kris Allen for Live Like We're Dying. and Michael Buble for I Just Haven't Met You Yet. I love those songs (: But hey, if you have an extra life. I could sure use one.