Tore me apart

You never deserved a heart as broken as mine.

I prayed for something to put back the pieces he selfishly took.

I gave in hours to you.

Hour of my day, and days of my life.

My life has no purpose until I met you.

You made me smile, but at the end of the day,

I was crying myself to sleep.

Suicide is something too serious to touch.

And with you on my mind, never would it be a thought.

But as each day went by, each time you ignored my call,

I saw what I never thought would come up.

You stopped asking how I was.

Nothing matter, as long as you were happy.

You tore everything we had.

I don't regret anything I have said to you,

because I meant every one.

What I do regret, is believing anything you said.

Bullshit is not only your middle name.

It's what you live off of.

I kept every promise, close to my heart, next to you.

I don't know why I deserve this.

I can't believe the one person that could put me back together,

is the same person, who tore me apart.

More than you understand

I never wanted anything more than to be loved.

I never wanted anything more than to be treated right.

I know I deserve more than that.

I'm barely breathing.

I've been barely breathing.

I'm drowning in my tears.

Nothing can replace what you have taken away.

I miss you more than the sun can see.

But I will never have you.

Because I lost you at hello.

Walk that mile

I remember the first day I met you. I was weak, looking for nothing but someone to lean on. I was scared, and truly broken. I could not explain why you walked in, or why you're walking out. But I know and I put my full trust that nothing just happens. There was a time, when I was nothing but happy. That first time you gave what I have been searching for. I was using my life, to find purity within the impure. Your soul wasn't strengthened by confidence, but by the reactions that came from your friends. You laugh at the homeless, and you steal from the poor. But why I keep hanging on to what was once pure, will always be a mystery. The simple mind, and the forgiving heart does not last forever. I used to long for purity, but now I long for nothing but trust.

My heart won't stop beating for you.
You're always on my mind, next to who I always thought you were.
But time tells stories you were too afraid to.
Lies start to unfold with the love we used to have.
Blame doesn't have a name.
But this time, I know it's Fate.

I want to simply be happy.

Just another day.

I fell in love with someone that was flawed. But who isn't.
This story is different though.
Because through each day, I hold onto all I thought we had.
As you look my way, and our eyes meet, the connection is too strong to deny.
The way your hair lays, reminds me of the way we used to be.
Simple.

We weren't in love, you never saw what I saw in your, within myself.
But as the clock passes time, I need to accept Fate as spoken.
That the Lord gave me your hand, so you could let go.
As I am turning in bed, I try to keep my mind off of all you used to say.
But no words can describe the denied connection we have.
Something, I will never be able to explain.
Because if I could explain, we wouldn't be so far apart.

One day, I hope you're with who you are suppose to be with.
I hope one day you look at your wife and realize she's worth the wait.
I hope beauty fills your life with tragedy and love.
Love will take you places beyond what your mind can grasp.
To the places, next to who Fate brought you to, within your own soul.

I wish you would have asked me how I felt.
So instead of writing about you,
you would fully understand what's going through my mind.
But no words, can explain why I have held on so long, through so much.
I'm not waiting for you.
I know you're never coming back.
Because you were never here.

I know, our souls unity with the connection we have.
But the truth shines while you walk away.
You're not walking away from the connection,
you're walking away from the appearance we don't have.
I don't look like someone you would love.
All my beautiful is held within my heart.
And my heart just doesn't matter enough.
But that is all I have, that is the gift the Lord has given me.
I would trade my appearance anyway to be with you.
Because that's the one thing holding us apart.

Love is a beautiful thing, isn't it?

It just happens

You once had me believing you loved me.
You once had me under your arms.
You once had me living for everyone but myself.
Living with you, living for you.
You've changed who I was.

But then there was that moment when I realized,
Not even those who I love, will change who I am.
That's the beauty about it.
Because those people love me for

who I am, who I will be, who I am not, and who I will never be.

Don't speak words you do not mean,
Close your mouth,
and learn to open your heart.
To something, someone
besides yourself.

Teenage years are full of selfish days. Maybe, one day, when you find yourself, you'll come back. But on second thought, when you find yourself, you won't need me. Make the joke, make them laugh, I'll be just fine. There's always those people, we think we can't live without. Because the best moments were with them. But the best, meaning so far. There are only better moments to come, with people you will look at and realize you waited for them. You made it through the storm, to people who love you.

You'll fall out of love, the same way you fell in. It just happens.