Naive

What does it really mean to be naive? 

People call me naive for believing people when they say they are gay. 

"He's just faking it to mess with you. It's going to be so embarrassing when you find out it's all a joke on you." 

Can we step back for a second.

You can me naive for understanding people are different than YOU.

You're the naive one sir. You are. 

People are so afraid of what they don't understand. 

Don't call me naive because you haven't stepped out of your little life. 

I Believe.

I believe.
I believe in the past, for it's already happened.
I believe in the present, for it's the only way to get to the future.
I believe in the future, because I believe in the impossible.
I believe that what's happened in the past only makes us stronger.
I believe that loves breaks you down, but it's the only thing to heal you.
I believe that there is more, more than suffering.
I believe that I'm beautiful, for I am created in God's perfection.
I believe that my mind is a blessing in disguise.
I believe that no matter where I end up, it's where I'm suppose to be.
I believe.

Watching me Bleed

It's harshly funny how watching me bleed gives you some sort of enjoyment. Go ahead and lie to me. Go ahead and pretend you know much, saying you have my back. Go ahead and cheat your way through life. Go ahead and leave me. But if you're going to, leave every last piece with me. I can learn t o love again with time. I will be able to put myself back together with the support of the people around me. But don't take any of my heart with you. I'm so beyond your mind games. I don't believe your words anymore than I believe your actions. I cannot believe you go out of your way, having this pitiful attempts to create this bitter jealousy relationship that no one can explain. Don't tell me you're for real. Don't through in some fate trick. You're funny, you really are. That's sometime I never lied about. But I'm drowning over here, I don't need your added side smirks.

On your way out, don't worry about the door. I'll close it. I'll lock it. All you need to do is leave. Leave before I really have no way out.

I'll have a scar on my heart forever.
But instead of feeling pity for my story.
I will embrace every mark and have pride that I made it out.

When you're going through hell, keep going.

Too Beautiful

You're too beautiful.
Go out pick yourself a bouquet of flowers.
Go out and have yourself a picnic.
Sing in the shower, and make yourself a hot cup of tea.
Step on the crunchy leaves
and realize it's not your fault you're broken.
But it's your job to put yourself back together
through what makes you truly happy.
Caring for yourself.
Because you're too beautiful to stay down. 

Let go

What I don't understand is how I have a choice, and I still choose to be stuck in the same spot. I don't expect pity from anyone. I ignored advice, I am abusing myself. I am taking what's left of my heart and making it go through the same thing all over again. Do I have a right to pity myself? No. Take what's left and go pack your bags and move. The past shouldn't matter, but it does. And you know it always will. Nothing is going to change. What's happened has happened. Have faith and realize nothing will get better under you let go. Let go.



I'm not coming back to you.