I've decided.

I've decided I love everything about life. Now, for once in my life, that's not sarcasm. I'm not going to be the girl that you think is weak and insecure. Right now I want you to know, that's not me. You should be proud that people laugh. That people stop and stare. I don't care if you think I'm a freak. Go on and judge me. Say I'm one thing, say I'm the other. But honestly, it doesn't matter. NOT AT ALL. You can say one thing, does that make it true? Someone can say you are ugly and useless. Really? that's cool. Gain some self confidence and stop making up flaws in people just to cover up yours.

I think the flaws in people are the things that make them beautiful. But the thing is, what is wrong and right? what's a gift and what's a curse? It's all up to you.

I'm not wasting my time taking every aspect of my life and tearing it to pieces. I'm done spending time on people that don't care. It's okay, really. I've found many people that are amazing. And why would I ever sit here and think life is just horrible. I have friends and a family, and they are amazing. The next time I ever say anything about how life sucks, please just slap me.

<3

hey, guess what?

I'm beautiful, talented and loved.

Ohhhhhhh, I don't care what you have to say about it. Thanks.

tell me how.

Could you please tell me how you can treat me like I'm everything, and then next day it's as if we've never met?

Yeah, that's what I thought too.

I do not understand.

and maybe you can help me out?

I think the one thing on people's mind is trying to find comfort in the people around them. But this is what I'm confused about someone can admire someone so much, can love who they are, look up to their actions, think they are just great. And what do they do? Nothing, they keep everything that can make this person's life locked inside of them. I don't care who you are, obviously if you're a self centered jerk, there is no way you are actually reading this. So to those people who care, you know that even if you have no interest in this person, if someone told you that you were amazing, you would be honored. And it's annoying when people act like they don't care, honestly, I know those people with bigger egos than anything, but a small act still has a small impact on them. I'm confused why the one thing people are looking for is love, and everyone has the chance to give it to them, but everyone hides it inside.

my life is a movie.

& don't try to tell me otherwise.

Don't get me wrong, I am not complaining about how I wake up every morning and throughout the day something unexpected, that could totally ruin my life happens. I enjoy it. I enjoy walking down the street knowing I'm going to probably run into someone I don't want to see. Okay, I don't know it's going to happen and that's why it's crazy. Things happen that are basically impossible. I think that's just proof of God. Everyday there's a challenge. Everyday I have an opportunity to make a change for my life. Yeah, "it's impossible to have one thing change your life." But, I'm not saying I'm going to live a different life. My life will just be different. In the smallest of ways. I know if I was reading this, first, I would be so disappointed that it says nothing but a bunch of well, nothing. But I'm serious when I say this. I know I'm on some show, me and all my friends. Well, they know who they are. Wink wink. Anyways, I don't understand why, and even how things like this happens. But the point is they do. Things that chances are against. Things that just make no sense. But hey, I don't have room to complain nothing happens, I bet in ten minutes I'll just have another chapter to the life of michele. Two thumbs up. Thanks for reading,
even though you probably knew all this, since you are watching this movie and all.

I can't change the world,

so why do I try to figure it out?

I know this is on my facebook, but it felt weird not being in here, so here you go.

I’ve been thinking, but when is that a surprise. I’ve always wondered what goes through people’s minds. But one thing I’ve noticed is, the little things people do mean more than people think. Even if there’s a jock here, and a nerd there, a simple hello can still change their lives. We always think before we introduce ourselves, asking someone to hang out, asking someone to go out, whatever the case is, we all stay inside how shells just waiting for the right time. There’s not going to be a sign that comes up, green light. There’s no driver’s manual telling you the right and wrong turns in life. It’s a free way, go. You will regret more of what you didn’t do, then what you did. You will never know what will happen until you try. It sounds stupid, but it’s the truth everyone is trying to avoid. Another thing, people are not out of anyone’s league. I hate seeing people tear themselves over people that they don’t think they have a chance with, they have friends, so do you. What makes people better than other people? Talents? Looks? Well, everyone has those, so absolutely nothing. We are all human beings with feelings, and the feeling of needing someone, and everyone would love to know someone cares, or is interested.

Think about if someone was tearing themselves over you, someone who admires you, someone who cares, but they go on living day by day wondering what you would say, wondering if you would give them a chance. You would love to know that, right? Yes, and so would they. I’m not trying to convince you to go out and just make the world an awkward place. There’s a place and time, but when I say that, that means there is a place, and a time, and you will tell them. Even if it’s just a friendship you are seeking. People make more impacts on random people then they think. Why do we trash talk other people? This one I can’t figure out. Instead of holding this unknown grudge against the person, life would be so much easier just to inform them. I hate having to think through all this stuff, I hate having to think about what people are feeling and what I can do to make this world just a better place. Superman must be real stressed out, all of the time. I can’t figure out people, when I can’t even figure out myself.

I need inspiration.

My blog has becoming so boring lately, I need something to write about and maybe new colors? I don't know. I change it around so much. I need ideas. :/

andy samberg.

He is adorable.

we're breaking free.

Things are different. No, I haven't move on from before, but I have moved forward at the same time. I've realized, you never really meant anything more than a name to make a few girls laugh. Must be proud, I sure would. The only person I've ever met that actually wants people to hate him, you're very unique, that's for sure.

Now, there's this other guy..
going through all this, and realizing what I need and what I want, I've realized you are both. I want to be with you, I want you to be proud of something (honestly, I have no idea what I meant by that, but it sounded alright.) I want you to know, I'm always here for you. Not because you're just so super cool, because for the first time, I think you are worth my time. All because you are thankful for it. Do I know this for sure? No. But I'm pretty sure by the way you act. By the way you smile when we past each other in the halls. By the way you call for no reason. By the way you can just be who you are knowing I won't be recording every move to just look back and judge.

Because you know I'm not like that, and now that's something I am proud of. You've taught me to have confidence. I've never realized until today, you mean more than I thought you would. And yes, I've lost so many people in the past years, and yes I thought life was over. I hate myself for believing that someday you will meet someone on vacation, and then the next time back at school they have moved to your school, and you will sing a song about being yourself and how much you want to dance with them while it's pouring on top of the school roof. Alright, that's not going to happen, but when I am with you, I feel like I don't need that. Because whenever I am with you, it's my own highschool musical. Without the music, without the dancing everyone happens to know, without the pouring rain, just being with you is greater than all three combined. And I am happy for my mistakes, and the people who walked out, because that's what got me here, with you.

to be with you.

I'm the one who wants to be with you
Deep inside I hope you feel it too
Waited on a line of greens and blues
Just to be the next to be with you

Build up your confidence
So you can be on top for once
wake up who cares about
Little boys that talk too much
I've seen it all go down
Your game of love was all rained out
So come on baby, come on over
Let me be the one to hold you

find a penny pick it up

and all day long you'll have good luck.

I hate believing in 11:11, I hate believing in luck of a penny heads up, I hate believe that everything is suppose to be a sign for something greater, and getting my hopes up for nothing.

take this big brother.

You have to right to state your own opinion. You have the right to talk to whoever you wish to. You have the right to ask questions. You have the right to know the answers. You have the right to act like a little kid, at any age. You have the right to take a picture, and years later laugh. You have the right to make friends. You have the right to smile whenever you think it's right. You have the right to believe in anything you want. You have the right to go out and do whatever you want. You have the right to dream beyond your backyard. You have the right to respect everyone, no matter how you view them. You have the right to understand you are not perfect. You have the right to connect with other people. You have the right to deserve a chance. You have the right to be who you were born to be. You have the right to sing at the top of your lungs in public. You have the right to speak out. You have the right to teach people lessons. You have the right to cry your heart out. You have the right to start over. You have the right to express who you feel, in anyway. You have the right to live out your life with an open mind and a full heart. You have the right to know you are beautiful, no matter what anyone else thinks.

Beauty is always in the eyes of the beholder, remember that.
Beauty is not how much money you spend on makeup and clothes.
Beauty comes from the soul.
And true beauty reflects more than bought beauty does.

It's your right to know.

I wished for you, by the way.

words from a photograph.

Lately, I've been thinking about everything.
But, something really came to my mind to think about.

I looked at a picture of me from when I was about five years old. And it came to me. That girl, from ten years ago, didn't experience the times that I had to go through. All the times I couldn't stop crying, she has no idea. She has no idea of whats ahead. She didn't tell stupid boys tear her heart away. She was smarter than she is now. When I went to help out at the elementary school, it made me think. These kids have years ahead of them. They haven't met people who will change them, they haven't been places that will change them to take a different view.

It's just amazing to think now, oh our lives suck. Actually, ten years from now you will look back at pictures of your highschool years. Cracking up at the thought that you thought everyday your world was going to end. You will be happy, and wish you would have just put trust in God that you were going to make it out alive. Because you'll look back and realize you did.

Stop worrying about how happy you will be in the future. Stop taking time out of your prsent live to think about how the future will be. You are living in the past, present, and future. Leave the past behind, learn from it. Enjoy the minutes you are currently living. And have trust that your future will be bright. You are the only one to make your furute how you want it. But remember, live for today. The future will come soon enough.

this little girl.

not my problem, so I'm out.

It annoys me, it makes me want to just stand up and scream.
When something is not someone's problem, they say

"Oh, it's going to be fine." or "Oh my gosh, it's not big deal."

Well duh you think that. You aren't the one that needs help. You aren't the one thats traped with no way out.

I hate it, I just wish people could go out of their life for a second, and help people that aren't in the perfect place. But if it's not their problem, they couldn't care less.

I also find it annoying when people are someone's friend, until they actually need a shoulder to cry on. Then they are like whatever, see ya around.

Thanks. It means a lot.

look who's talking.

You have to tell people how you feel. There is no true way to know how someone feels towards you unless they tell you. There's no way they will know unless you tell them. People worry too much about being creepy with people. Hey, don't laugh. Seriously though. Giving someone a compliment will make their day. Everyone loves to know someone admires them, everyone loves to hear someone likes them for who they are.
Go for it.

let's dance.

I've been thinking about a lot lately.
I've been thinking about how important first impressions are.
I've been thinking about how no ones first impression is actually who they are.
I've been thinking about how much things change.
I've been thinking about how much you use to mean to me.
I've been thinking about how many times a day I am judged.
I've been thinking about how many people are truly in love with who they are with.
I've been thinking about what I want to do with my life.

I want to inspire people.
I want to make someone do something they've always wanted, but never had the motivation to do it.
I want to change someone's life.
I want to give someone that chance they've always deserved.
I want that one person to notice, they mean the world.
and they other to notice, I will never worship them.

I'm slowly killing myself.

I've realized how much different of a person I want to be. I want to stand out to people, but obviously not in a negative way. I strive to be the last one standing for something everyone knows is right, but afraid of what everyone will think. Today got me thinking of how sad it is that we all live to impress the eyes of others. Don't call me a hypercritical girl, I know, me too. And I used to deny it, I used to be like I don't care what people think and I realized I always did. But so do you. But lately, I've actually started to realize, it really doesn't matter. Because in ten years you won't even know the people around you, unless you were good friends with them. People are too harsh on people. Because no matter how "cool" you think you are, you know deep down inside, everyone is just as "good" as you. And the funny thing is, people who think they are all better, really have no room to talk. The most beautiful people are the most humble. Because the beautiful people are the ones with sense of directions, a set of morals, and confidence in who they are.

86,400 seconds in a day.

I feel like I've lost all motive to write in this ever since I realized how big of a jerk and waste of time he was. So now, what do I have to write about? Let's see, I've fallen in love with Kris Allen and Michael Buble. Kris Allen for Live Like We're Dying. and Michael Buble for I Just Haven't Met You Yet. I love those songs (: But hey, if you have an extra life. I could sure use one.

I just haven't met you yet.

I'm not surprised.
Not everything lasts.
I've broken my heart so many times I stopped keeping track.
Talk myself in.
I talk myself out.
I get all worked up, then I let myself down.

I tried so very hard not to lose it.
I came up with a million excuses.
I thought I thought of every possibility.

And I know someday that it'll all turn out.
You'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And promise you, kid, that I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.

Mmmm...

I might have to wait.
I'll never give up.
I guess it's half timing,
And the other half's luck.
Wherever you are.
Whenever it's right.
You'll come out of nowhere and into my life.

And I know that we can be so amazing.
And baby your love is gonna change me.
And now I can see every possibility.

Mmmm...

But somehow I know that it'll all turn out.
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And I promise you, kid, I'll give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.

They say all's fair.
In love and war.
But I won't need to fight it.
We'll get it right and,
We'll be united.

And I know that we can be so amazing.
And being in your life is gonna change me.
And now I can see every single possibility, mmmm.

And someday I know it'll all turn out.
And I'll work to work it out.
Promise you, kid, I'll give more than I get,
Than I get, than I get, than I get.

Ohhh!

You know it'll all turn out.
And you'll make me work so we can work to work it out.
And I promise you, kid, to give so much more than I get.
I just haven't met you yet.

I just haven't met you yet.
Ohh, promise you, kid, to give so much than I get.

(I said love, love, love, love...)
I just haven't met you yet

I just haven't met you yet.

there we go.

So, today I did a little experiment. And the results helped me so much. Your attitude something really makes a different how something turns out. Today was like every other day. I woke up, went to school, and I'm home writing in this blog. But it was so much more to that. There was way more confidence. That makes no sense, I know. But what you tell yourself is what you start to believe.

People are so stupid sometimes. The thing I hate is when people try so hard to be friends with people. Like seriously, they are not worth it. Start standing for your own beliefs and not to impress someone that truly doesn't care for you. I think one of the hardest things to do is move on, but it's by changing to be someone they love, isn't going to make you happy when they fall in love with you. To be happy, you have to be yourself and know someone loves you for just that. I always thought the whole 'be yourself' thing was really, well you know. Like okay? but it's soo true, and too many people change to impress people which in ten years won't even matter.

it'll be okay.

The thing is, no one will ever understand how you feel.

But you can't expect them to understand if you don't give them a chance to. Try to express how you feel. I know it's impossible because the strong feelings of either love or hate, can't be expressed in words. It's unfair that people have to go through their lives completely destroyed and all they have are the words of the people around them..

It'll be okay.

Is that so? Because frankly, it's been days, months, years. and It's not okay. I'll live to 85. Alright, I'm 15. That's 70 years left for it to be okay. So far, I don't see it getting any better. Yes, you are the only person that can make you truly happy. But I know for a fact, people around you impact you more than you impact yourself. If that makes any sense. The people you the most are the most important ones in your life? You answer that, because no matter what you say, I believe the opposite.

10 things I hate about you.

I hate the way you talk to me
And the way you cut your hair
I hate the way you drive my car
I hate it when you stare

I hate your big dumb combat boots
And the way you read my mind
I hate you so much that it makes me sick
It even makes me rhyme.

I hate the way you're always right
I hate it when you lie
I hate it when you make me laugh
Even worse when you make me cry

I hate the way you're not around
And the fact that you didn't call
But mostly I hate the way I don't hate you
Not even close, not even a little bit, not even at all.

Yes, I didn't write that. And yes those are not ten reason I hate you. You're are one of the most immature people I know. You could care less about anyone but yourself. If you ever want people to like you, start showing that you care. I understand you don't, and it's hard for me to believe. You're not all that great. Actually, you aren't even close. Before you go bragging about something you did, realize so many people are at the same level, same talent, same thing. That's harsh, but somehow you deserve it. You deserve to you know the truth. That you aren't perfect. That you aren't cool. There's a reason you walk alone, there's a reason you have to be annoying to get people's attention. If you're name wasn't so easy to say, I guarantee no one would. You act like someone's always watching. No one cares, I'm the only girl out there that has fallen for you this hard. Correction, I'm the only lost girl out there that has fallen for you this hard and you have no idea. Okay, what if you do have an idea. Then you are by far the biggest jerk, I've ever met. Either way, you are not worth the time to even think about, write about, talk about, goodbye. Enjoy your life, I hope you get somewhere. On the path you are going, that's very unlikely.

music heals the soul.

So, lately, its quite obvious that it has been a pretty up and down rollercoaster. But along the way I've heard some pretty random songs, but it seriously helped. So if you're bored, which most likely you are, listen to these. They'll make you smile :)

At least for me they did.

Come on Eileen by Dexy's Midnight Runners
Mother We Just Can't Get Enough by New Radicals
Shopping by Barenaked Ladies <-- must listen tooooo.
Hang on by Smashmouth

worst of both worlds.

He loves you. You hate him him.
You love him. He hates you.

Does anything work out? Better yet, Is anything suppose to work out?

I've only lived about 15 years, and I'm already questioning ever step I make. This is the last blog entry I'm ever going to write with you in mind. You're probably thinking that's a lie, and probably will end up saying I told you so tomorrow when I write another one. I don't get it. I don't understand why we, as humans, are tortured with falling for someone who could careless about us in the first place. I don't understand why, and at the moment that's all I want to know. I know life isn't fair, and the last thing I want is to hear an echo of it. What did I do wrong? Why am I being punished? One day I just want to wake up and be happy. I just want to know, it's going to be okay. But when I start to believe it, everything goes wrong. This is not suppose to be how life is. These are not the high school years that everyone dreams of. This is a nightmare. This is a trap that either way I try to get out, I'm going to get hurt. But the worst part is, you have no idea. I'm holding this grudge against you for causing me to cry, for causing me to give it all up, and you have no idea. You have no idea how much of an impact you have on me. If it wasn't for you, I would never wake up.

You meant everything.

Out of my life, and into the world. It happens everyday. People are hurt by other people.

This is a mad world.

It's not going to be okay.
I'm out of one trap, and into another.
I hope there is more than one way out.

that's enough now.

HAHA, listen. I'm not going to let you pretend like I'm your best friend one minute just for the next you treat me like you have no idea who I am. It's annoying and immature. Thanks.

rambling on and on.

Please explain to me why it's not worth your time to get to know who I actually am, but it's worth all the time in the world to get screwed over. I don't see the sense. Sorry for wasting your time, but take that back, the only person wasting time is me. Wasting the time to actually think you would use one minute of your time to actually say hello. That would could the the difference between friend and enemy. What I just wrote made no sense, but it doesn't truly matter. My thoughts are all over the place.

everything starts somewhere

You’re not as cool as you think you are. You are not as liked as you think you are. I’ll be your teacher and tell you what the difference between you thoughts and reality is. You’re perfect. You’re way cooler than you think you are. And you not liked, you are loved. You’re beyond human. Yeah, I don’t know you well. Yeah, I couldn’t list 5 things about you, but somehow I have a list of ten things I love about you. When you smile, I’ve never been so happy. Not because you’re smiling at me, but because you’re happy. I mean it when I say, when you’re happy, that’s all that matters to me. Look at me, I’m writing like I’m your sister. I’m writing as if I mean something to you. I might not mean anything to you, but you mean the world to me. And everyday, everyday, I look forward to lunch. The only time in my life, I’m not dying to eat. I’m dying to see you. I’m praying you’ll notice me. I’m praying that maybe for a second I’ll be on your mind. I don’t need a smile, I don’t need a wave, I don’t need anything but that second on your mind. Because everything starts somewhere.

it's amazing.

It's truly without a doubt amazing how people are be so self absorbed. And no, not only celebrities the people that walk the halls of our high school. Don't know who they are? They are the ones that do anything to not do what they are suppose to do. They are the ones who freaking just go out and do what makes them happy not even thinking for a second how it affects anyone else. But of course, it's only about how people think of you. It's about trying to get everyone on your side. The funny thing is, you're not. Half the people you think like you, all think they same. You're annoying and self absorbed. Enough said. You get it.

I've fallen for you.

It's about time I finally figure out where I'm going and how far I'll go to get there. Lately, I've been told different things. And my feelings towards myself and who I am, and you and who you are have changed, again. You're beautiful. You're perfect.

I'm not going to let the people around me any longer tell me who's right for me, and who I do and don't have a chance with. Because frankly, I don't care. I did, and it meant the world to me what my friends and family say towards my decisions and the people I hang around and the people I fall for. I do have control who I hang around with, and that's why this is goodbye. And that's why this is hello. But, I don't pick who pushes me down, who I fall for. But I've fallen for you, and I don't have anything I can change about it. So I'm going to take this chance, I'm going to say hello, I'm going to pretend I'm the happiest girl out there, when in the inside you are pulling me apart. I'm going to take the next step. The next step you take is the hardest one you will ever have to.

I'm not begging you to fall in love with me, I'm not begging you to be my best friend, I'm begging you to give me a chance. A chance to show you I'm not the girl you think I am. To prove to you I can and will be who you want me to be. Because I've never been so sure in my life than this,
We are meant to be with each other. We are meant to conquer the world. and we will, because together we can do anything. Because, when I'm around you, I know I can. Because when I see you, I feel like I've never been so special. Because, I feel like the luckiest girl ever. Because, I've never felt this way before. There's not a song, not a melody out there, no words, no actions, that can truly express how I feel.

Whoever said "nobody's perfect," never met you.

another day goes by.

This is horrible, so if you are the one to judge, don't read on. But again, if you are reading this in the first place you have nothing else to do. It's one thing to try new things, it's another to take someone's place. It bothers the crap out of me when someone that has no experience, talent, or passion for something, and walks right in and take someones place. But on the other hand, life is so unfair and hands a single person the love of it all. That person is good at everything. everything. everything. And I have to sit here and wonder, I'm just asking for one, simple talent. A simple gift, and they go out and ace the world. Sometimes, I just want to know what I did to deserve the pain of sitting here watching the world succeed, while I'm slowly fading away.

it makes no sense.

Why is it that we have funerals when someone dies? I know it's to honor the persons life and all their accomplishments. But why don't they have funerals for those living? Call me crazy, but whats said at a funeral could stick with someone forever. No one goes up there and says he was a horrible man. No. He was a good man, and why is it that we say all these meaningful and memorable thoughts when they can not hear it? I love everyone I know because everyone has given me a gift. But do they know that? well if you are reading this, now you do. But I'm not going to wait for someone as great as you to tell you how I feel. I want you to hear it now, so you can end with a smile on your face. I want to tell you know while you can still hear all the great things you are.

truth and dare.

Today was a beautiful day. The weather was nice. The sun was out, but in everyone still was the fear of everything. I know this blog isn't the happiest one you've read, but I do not need to write about happiness. I need to write about the truth and sometimes believing the truth is one of the hardest things to do. Half the time, you never really even want to believe it either. But this one you need to and, I hope, you want to believe. You can make someone's day. You can make someone's year. You can change someones life. It sounds so cheesy, but it's so true. The smallest things for everyone can make a huge difference. Saying hi in the hallway, just smiling. Of course, I'm talking about my view on things. Maybe for you, you don't care for a smile. You don't care for anyone just saying hi. But I know, in the inside, you do care. And it would make you happier. Even by a little bit. The same goes for you towards people. Knowing it could make their day. Why wouldn't you? It's these simple actions that people lack to give out. And it's these simple actions that mean the most. I dare you, everyday, to smile and say a simple hello to someone you normally wouldn't. Because no matter what other battle they are fighting, it would make their life better one step at a time.

Truth or Dare?
Truth: You have the power to make someone's life that much better. You have the power to make someone happy. You have the power to give them confidence. You have the power to change their life.
Dare: Use that power.

this is your life.

yesterday is a wrinkle on your forehead
yesterday is a promise that you've broken
don't close your eyes, don't close your eyes
this is your life and today is all you've got now
yeah, and today is all you'll ever have
don't close your eyes
this is your life, are you who you want to be
this is your life, is it everything you dreamed it would be

This is Your Life, Switchfoot

Overrated.

Broad ripple Vintage, it not as amazing as I thought it was going to be. Actually, I did find a couple of cute things but nothing worth traveling miles for. But having 30 minutes of doing nothing gave me time to think about Lexi Hathaway's status. I know it sound creepy, but she's an amazing girl with the best status. I love you Lexi. Anyways, here was her status.

If we discovered that we had only 5 minutes left to say what we wanted to say, every telephone booth would be occupied by people calling other people to stammer that they loved them.

And I guess this sounds stupid, but I really believe in this. People keep to themselves how they really feel towards people. When you really think about it, it's really strange why too. Why do you love someone but won't even come close to telling them? It's the fear of rejection, or not not receiving the love in return. I'm guilty. You're guilty. Everyone's guilty. And the truth is, is that, it's very sad. Love is a gift, and people hide it like it's a sin.

don't even read this.

I'm never the one good on actually writing good introduction since there's never any words to really describe or "introduce" what I'm about to say. So basically, I just say it. Today started off great, a crew meeting followed by an easy day in chemistry. But somehow some kid walks in and totally ruins my day. Actually, it's no one in particular. It's just knowing that no matter what you do, what you wear, the people that pass you in the hallway take one look and judge you. I guess I'm taking that a little far. I mean everyone judges people, and I guess in the end it doesn't matter. Like I said yesterday. Now I'm talking to 'you'. I don't know you very well, some might say not at all, but somehow and something pulls me to the conclusion you are so nice. That you would treat people the way people should be treated. Why do I think this? because that's what I want to see. I want you to be that perfect guy, I want you to stand up for the human rights. That's not you. Because my first impression of you wasn't even you, it's the character you played.

"Girls are taught a lot of stuff growing up. If a guy punches you he likes you. Never try to trim your own bangs and someday you will meet a wonderful guy and get your very own happy ending. Every movie we see, Every story we're told implores us to wait for it, the third act twist, the unexpected declaration of love, the exception to the rule. But sometimes we're so focused on finding our happy ending we don't learn how to read the signs. How to tell from the ones who want us and the ones who don't, the ones who will stay and the ones who will leave. And maybe a happy ending doesn't include a guy, maybe... it's you, on your own, picking up the pieces and starting over, freeing yourself up for something better in the future. Maybe the happy ending is... just... moving on. Or maybe the happy ending is this, knowing after all the unreturned phone calls, broken-hearts, through the blunders and misread signals, through all the pain and embarrassment you never gave up hope. " - He's Just Not That Into You

funny the way it is

There's always the people that are in your life, that you know you don't need. But something inside you keeps you on them. There are people that say goodbye to you, because you aren't meant to be with them. Lately I've been thinking about those people. But leading off of that thought, I was thinking about life is general. And for the first post, why not go all out? Life is just a small word, with such a huge meaning. It's actually, in a way, scary. Everyone always wants time to just go by so this day will come, this year, this place, but doing absolutely nothing. People get caught up in the smallest things, and worry their lives away. People complain all the time about how someone doesn't like them, they aren't good enough for this, and all other things like that. Who cares if you are a crap of the football player? play football. Who cares if he gives you death stares? smile and say hi. Because the worst thing of all is living through your life always afraid about what tomorrow will bring, and just worry your life away.

You get what you give out, if you're a self conceited jerk, you'll find yourself a nice self conceited jerk to be right by your side. Actually, that wouldn't work, since both would just be too full of themselves to care about each other. Or maybe that's the reason it would work. If you're a slut, good for you. You could not respect yourself any less. (yeah, good job miley cyrus!!) That's something to be proud of. You judge others without having a actually conversation with them? that's something everyone wants. If you're too lazy and self absorbed to get to know them, why in the world would they want to get to know you? Exactly. Don't get all upset when people judge you, hey, it's their loss.