Take it for what it's worth.

You were always on mind. You unknowingly became apart of my everyday life. You're smile gave me hope, and my dreams were full of how I could and would make you happy. I prayed you'd see everything in me that I saw in you, every night. I wrote pages and pages how my feelings took over my mind. I wrote about all the faith I had, of all the times where I never believed in something as much as you. For the past year, each day I've fallen more and more for you. For the lies that kept our friendship together, are the same ones that tore it apart. I gave all I had to you, and I still was not enough. There is nothing I could have done besides being there for you. And now it's clear, you do not need me anymore. And I have to accept the fact of what was tearing me apart was not that knowing that you did not feel the same, but now knowing you do not need my guidance anymore. I'll learn one day to move past all the doors I thought of opening, and I'll hold in all the words I've never said. I'll stop denying you to everyone who's asked. I'll be honest and say, you were someone I can not explain. You've changed my view on people, and life in general. I feel like I've truly failed you. That you out of all people still took the road most traveled. It's scary how well I knew you, and how well I thought you knew me. But as each day goes by, we become more of strangers. We ignore the presence of eachother, and move right on to the people we call our friends. What happened, I really couldn't say. Maybe what I didn't say was more powerful than anything I could have said. But as my life goes on, I will never forget all the comments and words you've said to me. For whatever motivation you had, that motivation is what brought me to where I am today. Hiding behind a mask, right next to the people I thought I would never get close to. Maybe you never did belong with me, maybe my friends were wrong, maybe my heart could not handle not being with you. Because when I think of soulmates, I think of how our hearts go together. How much of the world we could have conquered. Within my soul, I truly believe and always will, we could have worked. There was a connection that I don't care who denys, it was always there. And there was some force which brought you to me. And it was some cruel prank, trick, to see how fast I could fall. I'd like to think I'm on the right path, that maybe peple have walked in to replace the scar you've left on me. But let me tell you, you will never understand how happy your hellos make me, and how each goodbye makes my heart completely stop. I would have ran infront of any bullet for you. And even though seeing you makes me frustrated and confused, seeing you smile since makes me believe you are going places. I hope you find someone that cares for you as much as I do/did. I hope you find happiness in where it has always been. Everyday I want to share everything I've felt for you, with you. But I've held back because you're judgemental personallity is too large for any attempt to make your life that much better. I wish I could tell you, I wish you could understand. But time has past, and time is the only thing on my side. And there are no amounts of words that can explain. I'll always remember you saying I deserve someone too because I'm respectable. I will never forget that text message that started it all. And those months where you were torn up because of her, I was crying myself to sleep. One day, I hope you just open your eyes.