Two best friends

As always, every year my family and I go up to Michigan to visit our beautiful family. Some trips are short, some a bit longer. This year, when I returned home my friends handed me a very nice surprise. On my driveway, and currently still there (come check it out!), was a welcome home letter, note, drawings, whatever you want to call it. They wrote all my favorite things. Andy Samberg was a big one. They had Backseatsman quotes, Hot Rod, Yoshi, turltles, it was very sweet to say the least. The only problem is they signed it "Kels and Bank" So, I really don't know who did it... Just Kidding. I owe so much for two of my best friends. I love you lots.

Just around the corner.

We have six days to look back on the past year, look back at the broken promises but also the friendships that have been made through the faith you had in the world. It's been another year. Another year of your life, just another wrinkle on your face, just another chance to create dreams, and regrets of not living those dreams. Well, you have another year. You have another year to make a resolution to create a better life for you and the people you surround yourself with.

This year I've learned a lot about myself, the people around me and how the world works. The reasons, the faith, and the purity I see in the small things everyday. I hope you take time before the new year to look at yourself and see how far you've come. How much you've changed, how much you've experienced, how much you've lost, but more importantly, how much you've gained.

This year, I truly feel, has shaped who I am, more than any previous ones. This year I wanted to change the view people had on me, but then I realized what was important. This year, I saw the end but created a new beginning. This year people have torn me apart but the people who mattered put me back together. I've grown closer to my best friend, and farther from those leading me in the wrong direction. I've witnessed a true miracle. I've had to let go of the one person I felt was the other half of my heart. I've stood up for what I believed was right, and got complete shut down. I've gained strength and passion towards the love I have towards people. I know who to trust, and who to let believe what they want. I've been lead on to nothing more than a blank field of broken dreams. I've questioned my fate, and the real reason I'm here. I've realized who truly cares, and who has different motives. I've learned what I can handle, and what I can't. But I know with God, nothing is impossible. I've lived without a soul, and nothing but a body living for better days. I've learned to love who I am, and not let someone else's judgments define who I am. I've learned beauty is and can not be defined. Ttat beauty is in the eyes of the beholder. I've learned to appreciate every step, every breath, and every chance I am given. Each day has the possibility of holding a miracle.

There goes another year.
Here we all come 2011, don't let us down.
I've been living on these 11:11s.
On wishing for better days, better mindset.
But I have a feeling, this is going to be my year.

I love the way

I love the way you can always make me smile.
I love how long you've waited.
I love the way you just randomly laugh.
I love the way you express yourself.
I love the way you trust me.
I love the way you listen to every word I say.
I love the way you open the door for me.
I love the way you look at me.
I love the way you say goodbye.
Even more the way you say hello.
I love the way you give me confidence.
I love the way you make me feel worth it.
I love the way you talk to me.
I love the way you say I'm ridiculous.
I love the way you care more than I could ever imagine.
I love the way you are, I love who you are.

And just because I don't love you the way you want me to,
doesn't mean I don't love you with everything I have.

Yesterday

Yesterday I really figured out how I'm feeling about everything. Everything that I've been fighting to figure out for the past 4 months. But even though I can't say I've been given what I've wanted, I am happy with where I am. But only because it's exactly where I am suppose to be. So what happened yesterday? Yesterday was the start of a new path. With new hope, dreams, and a million possibilities. You've made my life that much better, trust me, but what you've given me was not what was what I needed. I needed faith that I could get past what was always holding me back. People won't push you forward. People push you down. Don't give up on hope, just put your hope into something else. And yesterday, I've realized where I should move all my hope to. And I swear, it's not in you.

When the angels sing

Listen to when the angels sing.
Just don't let fate get the best of you,
let fate get all of you.
I've put all my faith in fate.
Don't let me down now.

Truth of the day.

I love, I pray, I laugh, I dance, I sing, I write, I believe, I hope, but most of all I disappoint. And that's become very clear to me now.

Let me tell you

Let me tell you the story
it won't take very long
basically the same amount as if
I just wrote everything in a song.

It starts with the first verse,
but make sure it ends fast
because if I am not cautious of the fact,
it could be forever that it lasts.

I fell in love in the worst way,
I thought it was all so true,
but if that is what people call love,
it's not worth the price I had to pay.

It's life

I can color in my heart with the lies you build your integrity with. But what good would that do, when you tear whatever I give right from my hands. Maybe the world nothing makes more sense to you, since that's all you've ever said.

Stop talking to me.

Like no other

I swear on my life, I have never felt the way I've felt towards you ever in my life. But I swear on my life, I'll get over you. That one day, I'll be writing the same thing about someone else. But the difference is the difference between the truth and your lies.

Whenever you're ready

Every interaction starts a chain reaction.

What if they didn't move.
What if he didn't stay.
What if she left 2 minutes earlier.
What if he woke up 15 minutes late.
What if she never went shopping.
What if he decided to stop for dinner.
What if she stayed in for the night.
What if he didn't make the phone call.
What if she decided to go out for lunch.
What if he tripped on his way to work.
What if she gave up on love.

But he didn't. But she didn't.
And that's exactly what brought them to this moment.
Looking at each other.
It's fate calling, answer it.

Nobody else

I've held in so much from you over the past year, and we both know what I didn't say spoke louder than if I said anything at all. I can't express, explain, tell you how much I'm dying inside. The best friends don't know me, my family not even close, but that's merely because there are no words to describe how much I hold inside. People that say they understand me, I swear you don't. I swear, you have no clue. You've changed me. You've truly changed me. And there is nothing left to say then I wish I would have told you six months ago. I just wish you would have listened.

For anyone out there

I appreciate the time you spent thinking about me.
I appreciate the love you have given me.
I appreciate the compassion.
I appreciate the willingness to go beyond and really get to know me.

But if you're out there,
I need someone to tell this to, and I pick you.

I've always loved you.
And I always will.
But please do not let my anger take over my soul.
I pray all those memories will turn into nothing but the day before,
I pray that my tears will fill my bucket.
I pray that the ones I've torn apart heal through my own pain.
I pray that I'll move onto someone worth while.
Your worth is my pain.
I gave you all, and you still just watch as I fall.

Your changing mind, friend or foe?
I'm done with your come and go attitude.
Have fun running through your life with nothing but the memories of what happened and the thoughts of what could have been. Dream with your heart, but you know you'll listen to your mind. You really had me searching. You really had all of my heart, but I hope you enjoy sitting there watching it fall apart.

I don't have a title

My mind is killing me.
But my hearts hurts even more.

I'm in for it now.
And it's all for you, for your selfish soul.

Let me know when you look past yourself.

Thanks all to time.

While we go through the misery of the days we think we'll never get through. While you go through the punishment of karma. We always think we'll never get through. That it doesn't get much worse. But then a few months, a couple years, later you find yourself smiling again. Time tells it all, and no matter how much you don't believe it, with time, you will get through anytime. Because time is truly on your side.

Chain reaction

It's funny how it all works out,
but I swear, in the end we'll all be happy.
I promise you.

Dog days are over

If could let you in, I would.
There's no real reason not to.
But you're running through my head,
in every directions.
That's something I can't stop.
My heart beats faster when you smile.
Your smile says more than mine ever will.

But while you're hear, I'd like to say what I never would.
You make me feel as if what I believed in doesn't exist.
But what I believed in was not you.
Try to figure that one out, because I can't.

Listen to yourself

Picture yourself in the with no influence of others.
Picture yourself doing what you want, because it makes you happy.
Picture yourself saying what you want, because you decide too.
Do what you want, say what you want.

In the end, if we don't say or do what we tell ourselves to do.
We will never be happy.
Stop listening to all those people. Do what you want.

I owe it all to you

You are the greatest thing that has ever happened to me.
And there are no words to truly describe the way I feel towards you.
You make me smile by saying nothing, but it means everything.
I can trust you with my life.
And I promise you, I'm never letting you go.