He loves you. You hate him him.
You love him. He hates you.
Does anything work out? Better yet, Is anything suppose to work out?
I've only lived about 15 years, and I'm already questioning ever step I make. This is the last blog entry I'm ever going to write with you in mind. You're probably thinking that's a lie, and probably will end up saying I told you so tomorrow when I write another one. I don't get it. I don't understand why we, as humans, are tortured with falling for someone who could careless about us in the first place. I don't understand why, and at the moment that's all I want to know. I know life isn't fair, and the last thing I want is to hear an echo of it. What did I do wrong? Why am I being punished? One day I just want to wake up and be happy. I just want to know, it's going to be okay. But when I start to believe it, everything goes wrong. This is not suppose to be how life is. These are not the high school years that everyone dreams of. This is a nightmare. This is a trap that either way I try to get out, I'm going to get hurt. But the worst part is, you have no idea. I'm holding this grudge against you for causing me to cry, for causing me to give it all up, and you have no idea. You have no idea how much of an impact you have on me. If it wasn't for you, I would never wake up.
You meant everything.
Out of my life, and into the world. It happens everyday. People are hurt by other people.
This is a mad world.
It's not going to be okay.
I'm out of one trap, and into another.
I hope there is more than one way out.
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